Internal Monologue: Between Hearing Loss and Alzheimer's

"The Chaos of Silence" by author Fayza Harhash takes the reader on an intimate journey within the self, where personal reality meets the silence that gradually surrounds the protagonist. With a style that blends simplicity and depth, honesty and courage, the author reveals her struggles with hearing loss and her grandmother's experience with Alzheimer’s and cancer, transforming every loss into a window for understanding life and humanity.

The novel is not merely a narration of events; it is an ongoing dialogue with oneself. The protagonist faces moments of weakness, incapacity, and fear, yet at the same time offers the reader a chance to reflect on the hidden strength of the human spirit. The author states, "You must get accustomed to the silence of the place.. and feel safe amidst the insecurity..", a quote that summarizes the philosophy of the novel in facing silence and internal struggles with bravery and awareness.

What distinguishes "The Chaos of Silence" is the unvarnished conversation with oneself. The language is simple, yet it carries an emotional depth that touches the reader directly. Silence is presented not as an obstacle but as a space for reflection, for reorganizing thoughts and feelings. The protagonist senses the world around her through her eyes and smile, transforming the limitations of hearing into a skill for understanding others and deep communication, revealing humanity's ability to adapt and innovate in the face of adversity.

The novel also highlights the value of human relationships, especially between grandchildren and grandparents. The relationship between the protagonist and her grandmother is not merely an emotional tale, but a shared journey of memory and silence, where the loss of emotional memory motivates the protagonist to document moments and explore the meaning of life through documentation and reflection. Here, silence becomes a mirror reflecting the depths of the self and allows readers to confront their own silence.

The narrative style is based on internal monologue and limited dialogue, allowing the reader to closely experience each emotion, every fear, and every moment of joy or pain. Each chapter carries a lesson in patience, contentment, and hope, making the experience a contemplative, sentimental, and inspiring read.

It is a courageous novel in presenting the self and personal experience. Hearing loss, silence, and illness are not merely presented as crises, but as spaces for contemplation and inner growth. The novel reminds us that conversing with oneself, no matter how silent, is the key to understanding life, reconciling with oneself, and living with honesty and depth.

"The Chaos of Silence" is not just a story but an impactful, poetic, and elitist human experience that takes the reader on a journey to discover the meaning of silence, the value of self-awareness, and the importance of human relationships in mapping out the internal life of every individual. It is a call to pause, to listen, and to engage in an honest dialogue with oneself, where truth, hope, and contentment reside.

At the end of "The Chaos of Silence", the reader realizes that silence is not an obstacle; rather, it is a mirror that reveals the depths of the self. It is a space where we face our fears, embrace our weaknesses, and discover the strength of the spirit in moments of breakage and solitude. The novel proves that the ability to listen to silence and comprehend it is the secret to living authentically and consciously, and that amid loss and isolation, hope can emerge, and new meanings of contentment and connection with oneself and others can shine forth. In this profound silence, we find the courage of life and understand that every silence carries a story within it, and every moment of calm is an opportunity to rediscover the meaning of existence.